You know those dreams? The HUGE scary ones that make you feel like you are completely inadequate? Yep, those crazy ideas you get in your head that make you feel like a quack job because you catch yourself talking to them?

I have been battling a few of those something fierce lately. One of them is this blog. I think about it at the most random of times. I thought a year ago that it was a good idea and got it launched, and then literally froze up. And sort of panicked. Why did I panic, you ask? (haha hopefully you asked)

Holy smokes. As soon as I set my hosting account up and got my blog designed to a semi-acceptable style that I didn’t hate with my OCD tendencies of wanting it to be perfect, I couldn’t think of a single thing to write about. NOT ONE.

I stared at that blinking line on my computer screen. Daring it to force me to write. Trying to convince myself and that dumb line that I really didn’t have anything to say. That my thoughts were really not that helpful and how much of a waste it all was. That I couldn’t actually make a difference with this writing thing.

How many times does this happen to you?

Whether you believe in Satan or in some other demon out there, I think we all experience these fears on the daily in some form big or small. These sneaky little “Negative Nancy” or Negative Norman” thoughts burrow their way deep into your subconscious and tell you how much of a dork you are for wanting to do something bigger than yourself. For wanting to try. For even having the idea in the first place.

So what did I do? I let them win. I cancelled my hosting faster than I could make a sandwich and went back to pretending none of it ever happened. And yet here we are a year later, and that dang blog name keeps floating around my brain. The idea of making a place in the world with my name and thoughts on it still haunts me. So whether it is a prompting from the spirit or just some crazy hope that I was wrong and it might actually matter one day, here we are.

I am back on this crazy bandwagon – realizing full well that there are millions of blogs available out there to read. Yes, I am just a single voice in the huge void and maybe nobody will read. But I am committed to trying. So if you are one of those select few that finds a gold nugget in my words, and maybe I give you a bit of hope in your journey, it will be worth it.

My life is a voyage of ups and downs. It won’t be perfect. This blog will also not be perfect in any way, but it will be real.

What is something you are afraid to pursue and keep putting off because you think the world will judge you for trying? Leave a comment – I’d love to hear that I am not alone in my fears, and more importantly, be someone that can encourage you to go for those big, beautiful, crazy dreams. Because I can promise you that it will be worth it. If for no other reason than proving to yourself that you showed up to life and tried. It will be worth it.

Let’s face our fears together and finish out 2017 stronger than we started.

XOXO – heath